I have this sort of intuition about people that may be bothersome, but for me it weeds out the bad and good people.
My mom would always say to give people chances because they’re probably a good person and I’m just picky.
Not the case and many people tend to show true colors early on.
I’ve slowly come to terms that I need to trust this inside voice in my head/feeling in my chest when it comes to a bad situation or person.
If it’s not there, it’s not there. No force. Whether that be friendships or relationships.
When you’re an introvert like me, you latch onto people easily if you love their spirit.
This causes a real release and weight being taken off your shoulders because you can finally be yourself with someone.
He was my home. My peace. My escape from the demons and thoughts roaming inside my head.
This possibly also causes tension, and codependency can easily take control of this relationship.
When he left, I immediately felt like my lifeline was gone. My person was gone. My other half was gone.
We talk every single day, but it’s not the same when that person isn’t technically your significant other anymore. Your safe place is gone and you have to find something else to cope with the pain.
This can lead to a bad path very fast.
This time was different for me, I felt all of my emotions, I poured my heart out when I needed to, I challenged myself to live an independent life and if he stayed, he stayed. If he left, he left and I will be okay again.
Initially, I was terrified. Honestly, I have been miserable.
Now, I can say I am hopeful for the future,
If we work out, or not.
Being an intuitive and introverted creature in this crazy world can be scary, but you have to keep pushing along and finding the loop holes to strengthen yourself.